Always
Can you feel me?
Do you feel the depth, the pain, the complete surrender?
I feel your empty heart, the one that loves but knows that depth is more than just that simple love for another. It's a need, a desire, it eats away.
I need you too.
I need that abyss of pain, pleasure, pain and satisfaction. Both good and bad, pleasure and pain. I can't live without it.
I don't want to die without it.
I can feel your compliance, feel your defiance. I feel you. I know when you dream of me, it wakes me. It fills me with the images of you.
We are one. Always and ever.
Extreme
Is it extreme to feel the depths of who you are.
To cry each and every night.
The emotions that have been bottled for so long allowed to escape.
Hysterical laughter, insane emotion.
Or is it human.
The source of our true humanity.
Doomed from it's beginning to feel.
Doomed to think.
It boggles the mind.
Leads to insanity.
Enlightenment difficult to achieve.
Pain so easily defined.
Are we the source of greatness.
Are we the epitome of destruction.
I think we are simply what we are.
Scared and alone, unsure and in need.
Dimensions
Time and Dimensions
In this time is left a a hole.
A hole that will never mend.
It's existence both a comfort and pain.
Left to remind me that I lost
Lost both myself and what I crave.
A craving that invades all of me
Happiness dependent on it's need
Need based on heart and soul.
Sex an extension of what I am
Desire trapped in the moments of past
Past a fading memory of pure desire.
Desire a block to anything more than what I was.
Future a lie sent to trap hope.
Hope a concept long gone
Gone in a moment of time
In a dimension long gone.
This is what I am.
Hers
I live in my memories now
Little things
Subtle moments of perception
A smile, a laugh, a flash of that sparkle in her eyes
My mind plays games with my heart
Small teases
Mannerisms, strides, caught in my vision
But it isn't her.
Maybe she walks still in my soul
A ghost that will forever remain
How could it be any less
For time will never erase
Never lesson my heart
I am hers
Enlightenment
I woke up this morning in peace.
I slept through the night.
No nightmarish rejection, no pain of loss.
Just peace.
That world of fear is over.
I'm finally safe.
It feels good.
The storm raged and I survived.
For just that moment.
For just one day
I survived!
Let's make it just one more day.
One weekend.
One week.
One month.
A Lifetime!
Me
I can feel it, the gentle caress of your being.
Long for the moments of bliss inside.
That deluge of emotions it brings
It encircles what I am
I become whole when it touches me
Lost without it's sweet tender whisper
A soul ever searching for what the one brings
My light, my salvation found
Yet lost.
